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Heaviness of Expectations

 A few days back my neighbor's mango tree collapsed... There may be various reasons why the tree fell...but the main reason is since it's mango season their tree was overloaded with raw mangoes...Everyone passing by would look at the tree and would say wooooow...Definitely, everyone had an eye on mangoes which would ripen within 1 month....but destiny had some other plans and that poor tree collapsed...

The day it collapsed my heart pinched badly...I loved that tree not because it gave a lot of fruits or it was loaded with mangoes but because I share some emotions with leaving/non-leaving things including plants...Somewhere I felt tree had too many expectations from everyone and even from itself. I see that tree every year give fruits(BTW it's Goan king Manjurad)...every year it would bloom moderately but this year it was just overflowing with raw mangoes. Was it because the tree felt worthless for giving fewer fruits in past years?? was it because a tree had too much of expectations from its own self because of which it ended up taking its own life?

This same thing happens to us(human beings) also right. In this world of competition, we have too much of expectation and I am sure it's definitely not healthy ... we have expectations of excelling in the team, we have the anticipation of doing our best...sometimes we overestimate our own self and give way too many expectations and if one thing does not go the way we planned we get literally dumped under those expectations. 


In my 20s I was the same, even now sometimes I feel I a not enough or I need to do more... I still do have big dreams but somewhere to preserve my peace I make sure I don't just come under this heaviness, Lately, I realized that I just want to live in the moment. Future plans are there but I want to make sure I don't miss out on this present and then later regret saying I should have enjoyed yesterday or a year back... My tree gives average fruits but I am happy with its yield and know that when I am strong enough it will bear much more fruits than expected...


Cheers to life and a happy journey...By the way not sure if these are wise words from the 30s :)  

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