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Quaratine Wali Cribbing

Ohh yup that lock down started and my head started spinning at the same time. Not because I would miss out on the things but because of so many things which I had not even imagined without peoples interaction


  1. I missed office badly. Are yaar I do not have office set up at home where in I can sit nicely on a chair which has back support and a table which is perfect for the laptop to keep on and code. I shifted recently to the new place and I was about to buy everything(read it as me being super kanjoos to spend on silly things). So my back was getting badly screwed with all this wrong postures and all day staring into that stupid screen.
  2. I missed my office also because I had joined newly and I still felt I need to work in association in order to get used to the product which I am working on. 
  3. I missed office badly because electricity and WiFi was working without any hindrance. where as now I had dance calling BESCOM and then WiFi guy.
  4. I loved office because I was having fun working dude. 
  5. Ok so now coming back to the staying at home alone
  6. First of all I was not afraid of staying in isolation or without going into public. I had habit of staying into isolation during my early Menstrual cycle. Oh yup in our old house where in lot of things were strict we followed a rule where in during our Menstrual we were not allowed to touch anyone, not allowed to roam openly for 4 bloody days. So I was kinda having hang of it. Thanks to my quite forward ayee and pappa for giving us freedom to do whatever we want
  7.  I missed my family badly. If I had financial independence and planned my early retirement or my dad was super rich I would have not even taken this job in congested and crowded city, where in everyone is striving and running behind the same thing. Sometime my super anxious mind feels like what the hell I am doing with my life. BTW staying alone aggravated it more
  8. I was scared of the fact that I will miss my Yoga class now. This is the only thing I truly love. After I gave up on running due to injuries and lot of physical trauma I switched to simple yet challenging Yoga. I always loved it from the days I was a college kid. Yes when I was in college I used to follow Yoga regime .
  9. I was scared of the fact that, my mind will surely convince me that I am not made up for 9-5 job and it will again encourage me to take some actions
  10. I was scared of the fact that I will give less attention to my newly taken job .
  11. I was scared of the fact that I will become that introvert person again who was happy being alone, who was happy without mingling with anyone.
  12. I was scared of the fact that I will start hatting outside food again ...
So yes my cribbing is normal I guess. BTW it also made me realise that getting married early is good and very important.  I was not even thinking of this silly thing till now but then suddenly I realise abe yaar Moksha Prapti (making your sould independent) also needs to be done . So yes so much of realisation, This is the reason I guess all saints and sadhus go for meditation in forest. 

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